The One with Grandpa Tedder the Gooder and Better

Friday, March 21, 2014

I am very lucky. 
I am almost 29 years old and every member of my immediate AND extended family is still alive. 
I have never been to a funeral. 
I was only 10 when my great-grandma Celestia died but I didn't really know her nor really understood death.
I have known a lot of people who have died, but like I said, no one in my family, and they're who I'm closest too.

But my Grandpa Ted is in bad shape.
He's got dementia, pneumonia, low kidney function, problems swallowing so he's not eating, and a weird syndrome called "sundowners". The dementia is the hardest part for me. He was always such a bright, smart, funny man. But slowly he started to not remember me or the kids and began asking the same questions over and over and over and wanted to go see his mom up in Northern Utah who passed away many years ago.

I've been thinking a lot about him and my Grandma Doris lately.
My mom has been sending daily email updates about his condition. It could be days, weeks, months, or even years. The doctors say "Only the man upstairs knows the answer to 'when'."

I'm so happy I got pictures of Grandpa Ted with Fox and Jane and have made layouts with the photos so they can always look back and see him and know that he loves them.

Anyway, I'm sad.
Trying to stay positive and saying lots of prayers.
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